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The Journal of a Disappointed Man
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W. N. P. Barbellion
136
Curse!
Left
her
at
High
Street
Station
and
probably
will
never
see
her
again.
This
is
a
second
great
opportunity.
The
first
was
the
girl
on
Lundy
Island.
These
two
women
I
shall
always
regret.
There
must
be
so
many
delightful
and
interesting
persons
in
London
if
only
I
could
get
at
them.
June
4.
Rushed
off
to
tell
R----
about
my
little
Irish
girl.
Her
face
has
been
"shadowing"
me
all
day.
June
6.
A
violent
argument
with
R----
re
marriage.
He
says
Love
means
appropriation,
and
is
taking
the
most
elaborate
precautions
to
forfend
passion--just
as
if
it
were
a
militant
suffragette.
Every
woman
he
meets
he
first
puts
into
a
long
quarantine,
lest
perchance
she
carries
the
germ
of
the
infectious
disease.
He
quotes
Hippolytus
and
talks
like
a
mediæval
ascetic.
Himself,
I
imagine,
he
regards
as
a
valuable
but
brittle
piece
of
Dresden
china
which
must
be
saved
from
rough
handling
and
left
unmolested
to
pursue
its
high
and
dusty
destiny--an
old
crock
as
I
warned
him.
By
refusing
to
plunge
into
life
he
will
live
long
and
be
a
well
preserved
man,
but
scarcely
a
living
man--a
mummy
rather.
I
told
him
so
amid
much
laughter.
"You're
a
reactionary,"
says
he.
"Yes,
but
why
should
a
reactionary
be
a
naughty
boy?"
June
7.
My
ironical
fate
lured
me
this
evening
into
another
discussion
on
marriage
in
which
I
had
to
take
up
a
position
exactly
opposite
to
the
one
I
defended
yesterday
against
R----.
In
fact,
I
actually
subverted
to
my
own
pressing
requirements
some
of
R----'s
own
arguments!
The
argument,
of
course,
was
with
Her.
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