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The Journal of a Disappointed Man
·
W. N. P. Barbellion
19
October
1.
In
the
afternoon
dissected
a
Frog,
following
Milnes
Marshall's
Book.
Am
studying
Chemistry
and
attending
classes
at
the
Evening
School
and
reading
Physiology
(Foster's).
Am
also
teaching
myself
German.
I
wish
I
had
a
microscope.
October
3.
What
heaps
of
things
to
be
done!
How
short
the
time
to
do
them
in!
An
appetite
for
knowledge
is
apt
to
rush
one
off
one's
feet,
like
any
other
appetite
if
not
curbed.
I
often
stand
in
the
centre
of
the
Library
here
and
think
despairingly
how
impossible
it
is
ever
to
become
possessed
of
all
the
wealth
of
facts
and
ideas
contained
in
the
books
surrounding
me
on
every
hand.
I
pull
out
one
volume
from
its
place
and
feel
as
if
I
were
no
more
than
giving
one
dig
with
a
pick
in
an
enormous
quarry.
The
Porter
spends
his
days
in
the
Library
keeping
strict
vigil
over
this
catacomb
of
books,
passing
along
between
the
shelves
and
yet
never
paying
heed
to
the
almost
audible
susurrus
of
desire--the
desire
every
book
has
to
be
taken
down
and
read,
to
live,
to
come
into
being
in
somebody's
mind.
He
even
hands
the
volumes
over
the
counter,
seeks
them
out
in
their
proper
places
or
returns
them
there
without
once
realising
that
a
Book
is
a
Person
and
not
a
Thing.
It
makes
me
shudder
to
think
of
Lamb's
Essays
being
carted
about
as
if
they
were
fardels.
October
16.
Dissected
an
Eel.
Cassell's
Natural
History
says
the
Air-bladder
is
divided.
This
is
not
so
in
the
one
I
opened.
Found
what
I
believe
to
be
the
lymphatic
heart
in
the
tail
beneath
the
vent.
Marker
Marker
Fine marker
White-out
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Circle
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Unmarker
Hand
Scalpel
Dice
Sieve
Purify
Undo
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