Lab
Library
Journal
Shop
Sign in
to keep
Share image
1
349
The Journal of a Disappointed Man
·
W. N. P. Barbellion
311
February
1.
Looking
back,
I
must
say
I
like
the
splendid
gusto
with
which
I
lived
thro'
yesterday:
that
mettlesome
fashion
in
which
I
took
the
lane,
and
at
the
top,
how
I
swung
around
to
sweep
my
gaze
across
to
the
uplands
opposite
with
snow
falling
all
the
time.
Then
in
the
evening,
the
almost
complete
absorption
in
the
new
book
when
I
forgot
everything
pro
tem.
It
was
quite
like
the
old
days.
February
2.
Crowd
Fever
After
four
months'
sick
leave,
returned
to
work
and
London.
An
illness
like
mine
rejuvenates
one--for
the
time
being!
A
pony
and
jingle
from
the
old
"Fox
and
Hounds
Inn"
took
me
to
the
Station,
and
I
enjoyed
the
feel
of
the
wheels
rolling
beneath
me
over
the
hard
road.
In
the
train,
I
looked
out
of
the
window
as
interested
as
any
schoolboy.
On
the
Underground
I
was
delighted
with
the
smooth,
quiet
way
with
which
the
"Metro"
trains
glide
into
the
Station.
I
had
quite
forgotten
this.
Then,
when
my
hand
began
to
get
better,
I
rediscovered
the
pleasures
of
penmanship
and
kept
on
writing,
with
my
tongue
out.
And
I
re-enjoyed
the
child's
satisfaction
in
coaxing
a
button
to
slip
into
its
hole:
all
grown-up
people
have
forgotten
how
difficult
and
complex
such
operations
are.
Marker
Marker
Fine marker
White-out
Fine white-out
Circle
Paint
Unmarker
Hand
Scalpel
Dice
Sieve
Purify
Undo
Redo
Start over
