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The Journal of a Disappointed Man
·
W. N. P. Barbellion
341
I
am
only
twenty-eight,
but
I
have
telescoped
into
those
few
years
a
tolerably
long
life:
I
have
loved
and
married,
and
have
a
family;
I
have
wept
and
enjoyed;
struggled
and
overcome,
and
when
the
hour
comes
I
shall
be
content
to
die.
_
October_
14
to
20.
Miserable.
October
21.
Self-disgust.
FINIS.
[Barbellion
died
on
December
31.]
[1]
John
Wesley
rewrote
his
journals
from
entries
in
rough
draft.
[2]
I
once
received
from
an
editor
a
very
encouraging
letter
which
gave
me
a
great
deal
of
pleasure
and
made
me
hope
he
was
going
to
open
the
pages
of
his
magazine
to
me.
But
three
weeks
after
he
committed
suicide
by
jumping
out
of
his
bedroom
window.
[3]
The
Egoist
explains
himself
again.
[4]
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