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The Journal of a Disappointed Man
·
W. N. P. Barbellion
50
May
2.
Maeterlinck's
Wisdom
and
Destiny
is
distilled
Marcus
Aurelius.
I
am
rather
tired
of
these
comfortable
philosophers.
If
a
man
be
harassed
by
Fate
with
a
red
rag
and
a
picador
let
him
turn
and
rend
him--or
try
to,
anyway.
May
8.
Staying
by
the
Sea
I
have
been
living
out
of
doors
a
lot
lately
and
am
getting
sunburnt.
It
gives
me
infinite
pleasure
to
be
sunburnt--to
appear
the
man
of
the
open
air,
the
open
road,
and
the
wild
life.
The
sun
intoxicates
me
to-day.
The
sea
is
not
big
enough
to
hold
me
nor
the
sky
for
me
to
breathe
in.
I
feel
I
should
like
to
be
swaying
with
all
the
passions,
throbbing
with
life
and
a
vast
activity
of
heart
and
sinew--to
live
magnificently--with
an
unquenchable
thirst
to
drink
to
the
lees,
to
plumb
the
depth
of
every
joy
and
every
sorrow,
to
see
my
life
flash
in
the
heat.
Ah!
Youth!
Youth!
Youth!!!
In
these
moments
of
ecstasy
my
happiness
is
torrential.
I
have
the
soul
of
the
poppy
flaming
in
me
then.
I
am
rather
like
the
poppy
in
many
ways....
It
is
peculiarly
appropriate.
It
must
be
my
flower!
I
am
the
poppy!!
May
9.
L----
was
digging
up
the
ground
in
his
garden
to-day
and
one
shovelful
came
up
thick
and
shapely.
He
laid
the
sod
on
its
back
gently
without
breaking
it
and
said
simply,
"Doesn't
it
come
up
nice?"
His
face
was
radiant!--Real
happiness
lies
in
the
little
things,
in
a
bit
of
garden
work,
in
the
rattle
of
the
teacups
in
the
next
room,
in
the
last
chapter
of
a
book.
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