The Journal of a Disappointed Man

I am only twenty-eight, but I have telescoped into those few years a tolerably long life: I have loved and married, and have a family; I have wept and enjoyed; struggled and overcome, and when the hour comes I shall be content to die. _ October_ 14 to 20. Miserable. October 21. Self-disgust. FINIS. [Barbellion died on December 31.] [1] John Wesley rewrote his journals from entries in rough draft. [2] I once received from an editor a very encouraging letter which gave me a great deal of pleasure and made me hope he was going to open the pages of his magazine to me. But three weeks after he committed suicide by jumping out of his bedroom window. [3] The Egoist explains himself again. [4] Writing difficult to decipher.